S U R P R I S E!

Was in the midst of burial in the pages of textbooks for my final paper's revision, that I suddenly stopped and decided to bloghop! Still wonder if anyone STILL occasionally find themselves ending up in my blog only to find that I haven't been updating it for months. Oopss.. I've got no excuse other than some things are better left unsaid, and that other things are not worthy to be blogged about.

I bet its no surprise that everyone tends to reminisce times especially when the year is coming to an end. Blogs seem to have posts of what they have been through throughout the year, what's lost and found in the year, what they're gonna miss the most within the year. I'm like no other, and tend to see the importance in lost time and to realize that the year is coming to an end.

Come to think about it, there's nothing much that I've done in these 10 months that is worth bragging about. However, there are definitely things that are very much different from how they were 10 months before.

Recently, I've been very much pondering on what will happen after this year. As in, I BETTER be done with my degree and then I would be like everyone else, venture out to the society to work. Haha. This is another step in my life that I am feeling kinda lost in. I remember that the first time I had this kinda feelings was when I had to decide what to study and major in after high school. I would have to be responsible for the decision I made, and thankfully; I don't regret opting for business majors. I like what I study! Well, I have to right? Lol.

Now, this is the second time that the mixed feelings are back again. The uncertainty, fear, relief and excitement all mustered into one. For those who are out there in the working world now, have you had this kinda feeling in the transition of graduating and going out to have an actual job?

Coming to an end for my uni life also means that the friends whom I've made, the 'corner shop' lunch sessions, the struggles for assignments and exams, the friends whom feared me when we're working on group assignments (only because they know how serious I can be when it comes to work, and NOT because I'm fierce k! haha.) are all memories that I've had throughout the 3 years and will be kept for many years to come. As of next year, each of us would have our own paths and lives to live. This is something that I really dread and I'll miss it in time to come.

Lost and found? Think its inevitable and bound to happen for any of us. Friendships, relationships, trust, and happiness comes and goes. Guess this is why we tend to cherish them when they're around, and appreciate them more when they're gone! I for one, believe in fate and how it can bring people together or tear people apart. I do believe that if fate allows it; then no matter how far apart we might be now, we would be closer once more in time to come.

I've had my shares of doubts and ambiguities as well throughout the year. Not knowing if the decisions I've made were the right ones, but guess we'll never know until we face the music of the decisions. I too have regrets throughout the year, but I've learnt that some things are just not within our controls and that if it is destined to turn back around someday, it will!

Haha. I sounded emo in this post, don't I? That's just how end of the year makes me feel! Oh, don't get me wrong. I do anticipate the years to come and moving on to the next chapter or transition in my life, but the records of what happened in these 10 months would be bygones and the only records of them would be in my memories...

Cheers to the past 10 months of 2008 and more cheers to the people whom I've shared the past 10 months with!

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